Thursday, July 31, 2008

Rough week...tough post to write...

This week has been tough. I have been so incredibly sad for my sweet cousin Lindsay. The results of her pathology report did not come back the way we wanted, she had more cancer then we knew and she is now considered stage 3. This means cancer was found in the lymphnodes that were removed (2 out of the 4). She will now need radiation with chemo. My heart aches for her and her family. I know I must remain positive and I try, I really do. I know she's a daughter of God and she loves her Saviour. I know this is his plan and it will be resolved in his timing... I just can't get over this overpowering sadness. I'll just say it. It kills me that she has to go through this ugly disease when she has 5 children and a husband that need her so much. I'm scared that she has to wonder if she'll be around to see her children grow up. I fearful she has to face this at the age of 30. It breaks my heart that her little kiddos cried for their mommy while she was in the hospital and that she is too tired and has too much pain to lift them up for hugs...I must stop. I could go on and on but I just can't let myself go to far into the darkness of this. I know there are so many people just like Lindsay suffering through cancer and many other illnesses. I thank GOD for the health of my children, husband and myself. I can only hope and have faith that God will get her though this as quickly as possible ... I have not lost my faith, I just feel weak.

We covet all your continued prayers.

Below are some cute pictures of the family... enjoy ...Oh, and thanks for letting me vent. =)

I just love this picture of Rachel, she's my little angel that told me today when she grows up, she wants to work at a place that gives food to people who don't have any AND she'd like to be a dog catcher. I think she believes dog catchers get to keep all the dogs they catch because Rachel wants 64 dogs, 3 cats and a parrot!
This is a cute one, Linzhi is smiling while biting the glass table. I love her reflection!! =)

Tonight, we pretended to take "professional" pictures by the lit candle. I love seeing Rachel's grip on Linzhi (to keep her still) thru the glass table!

Our Handsome Trevor, asking me to stop taking pictures of him...oh well... LOL

Our precious Linzhi Rose Xiaoli

Our beautiful Rachel Catherine

The girls, swinging on G&G's swing with daddy...Their future husbands have BIG shoes to fill!


Jenna York said...

Your girls are so precious. We had a marvelous time with you guys Wednesday. I can't believe how grown up are girls are getting!
I am cracking up over Linzhi biting the table! That's so cute!
I have been following your cousin's journal. She has so many happy things at home to keep her spirits lifted high. Her salvation, her kids, her husband, her loving extended family. Watch her and you will see the strength of God carrying her through this.
I love you! Jen

Katy said...

Thank you for inviting me Amy! :)
Wow....this is so tragic! I wish I had the right words to say...I have said a prayer and I hope for a full healing....and that God's will be done!

Katy said...

And I want to add that you have a beautiful family!!!! :)

Jess said...

I can certainly relate to how you are feeling at this time. Early this year we lost my sister-n-law to a tragic accident, she was only 22. They have a daughter just a little over a year old. It was so hard to understand the fairness of the entire situation. I often stuggled with understanding God's plan at that time, and still do on occasion, even now. When my faith began to be tested I reminded myself that we are living His plan, His will, and our true home is with him someday and that puts it into perspective but it is still not always easy. The experience has made me count my blessing alot more too, even in times when it is far easier to focus on the negatives.

I am so sorry your cousin is having to fight this battle and is faced with so many concerns. It's sounds as if her faith is strong and I am sure that it will give her the strength to beat this terrible disease. I will keep her and her family in my prayers.

On a lighter note...
Your kiddos are looking too cute! Thanks for dropping by with some words of encouragement. I am feeling so ready to pop right now :)


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Barbie said...

I am so sorry Amy to hear about your cousin. I will be praying for her and for her healing. Also for her husband and children. What heartbreak. I am so thankful she knows her Savior.

I am also glad to hear that Trevor arrived safely. Thanks for praying for Brandon. He arrived home safely too.