Tonight, I've been going through little videos and photos of our China trip. We are already preparing for our six month report, I just can't believe it! Where does precious time go? I would love for it to slow down, I'm enjoying my kids at the ages they currently are and I just don't want it to change. I guess you can tell I'm in a sentimental mood this evening. Anyway, the photo I'm attaching is from the day before we were united with Linzhi. I cannot put into words the thoughts and emotions I was feeling. I have never been that far away from my kids AND I was going to be a mother for the third time but it was so surreal... No belly, no labor pains, no water retention, no food cravings (ok, that's one's not true, I crave chips and salsa everyday)...You get my point. Anyway, I fell deeper in love CJ and surrendered so many feelings of being the independent woman that really didn't need anyone to "take care" of me. CJ took care of me on that trip, he helped me when I was feeling my lowest and in my most vulneable state. God is always present and gave me so much peace and comfort but you can't see him, I feel him but I can't touch him. CJ was my tangable peace and I will always remember how the Lord blessed our marriage during those unique 14 days. Marriage can be tough for me sometimes, it's hard for me to always remember I'm only half of the team. I was so used to doing it on my own that we had our power struggle issues, it's hard going from head of house to co-partners but we manage and bottom line, we love each other and need each other and I'm so blessed to go through this wonderful, interesting life with him. He's my rock. =)
3 comments:
That is so wonderful Amy! (and BTW, could you look ANY cuter that day???) It is so amazing to me that God can bless us with so much, things we may not even recognize at the time for what they are. What a wonderful, lasting blessing to come together as one, united for the same purpose and under so much stress;-)
I can relate to so much you write about! Like the part about being independent, but realizing I need my husband! I have a VERY independent spirit. It's so fun to remember back to our trip to China and see how far these babies have come! I loved your post about sweet Linzhi sleeping in her bed with her sister! What a precious picture that puts in my mind! She seems like one really special little girl, and it will be so neat to see the plan God has for her! ;)
Blessings,
Laine
What a wonderful testimony you have. Thank you for sharing~
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