Nesting

I was just reading about another mama that has started nesting as she will be leaving for China very soon too. I can't sit still or SLEEP. I have not been able to shut my mind off all week and it's starting to catch up with me in the form of dark circles under my eyes, a few pimples on my face and the constant need for caffeine!! Oh does this bring back memories of the last month of each of my pregnancies and when we received our LOA for Linzhi Lu. I.NEED.SLEEP!!! I need to stop tearing apart my house, my hands are raw from bleach and the kids are looking at me weird...HELP!!!!!


Yesterday, I received a email from Karla at Lifeline letting us know our I-800 Paperwork is on the way to NBC for our approval and then off to CHINA! (not us, more paperwork) I am still in awe at the work of God's hands.

I'm rambling again... I must have drifted off to sleep last night because I had a vivid dream of Madelyn. Her hair was cut into a bob with highlights??? (she has long, black wavy hair)...Anyway, all my girls were on the couch coloring and I walked over to each of them and handed them a juice box (don't know why, Linzhi only drinks water???) so when I get to Madelyn she lifts her arms for me to pick her up! I just remember holding her like she was an infant. It was quick and precious and then it was over. I can't wait to hold her. I can't wait to sniff her hair (I do that will all my kids cuz, they all have a different scent). I can't wait to see her walk into church for the first time, I can't wait to just see her in person! It seemed so far away for such a long time that the reality of it coming soon has kind of put me in a tailspin. I have a strange feeling things are going to move very fast. Trevor is going with us to China. On Monday, I took him to get his passport and then when we got home I saw the email from Karla that we were LOA. I could have kicked myself for not paying the extra $$ to expedite his passport, I even called the post office to see if I could catch it before it went out, well too much time had passed and it was gone. *sigh*

Well, I am off to clean more stuff or organize some drawer or re-wash something, then I'm off to grocery shop and Bed Bath and Beyond to look for Madelyn's bedding. I'm in complete Joy!